Still

I always let you get to me
I leave myself wide open
Maybe intentionally?
But I tried so hard to lie
Should’ve known you’d see it in my eyes
I didn’t want it to get complicated
To admit you leave me frustrated
I didn’t want it to change
My world is upside down, it’s strange
But I’m loving every fucking word you say
I miss you every day
And I feel it too
Don’t think I could ever get over you
My heart has never been so heavy
And I’ve never been less ready
I’m vulnerable, and I hate it
But it’s a hunger only you satiate
A feeling I reciprocate
I’m holding back
I’m holding back so hard
And I’m still failing
My emotions are derailing
I love you, why shouldn’t I declare it??
It’s simple, unethical to share it
But battle hearts and battle minds
Which do you choose to leave behind?
A chance in the dark
Or stable, common routine
Deciding won’t change how much you mean
It never has
It never will
And here I am, standing still

Ive never been more afraid to move

It’s Not Romance

It’s not romance

It’s adventure

I always was an explorer

Terrain rediscovered

My body is bare

But I know in the morning

You wont be here

 

Not that high up

Yet I’m falling

I always did lose my footing

Balance regained

You drop me a line

I know I don’t need to

But I reach every time

 

You don’t have to ask

I’m still telling

I always tend to speak my mind

I feel like a fool

But can’t stop caring

You’re under-enthused

And I’m oversharing

 

I untangle the web

You re-spin it

I always was fond of the hunt

But I cannot resist you

I’m caught up inside

The hunger’s insatiable

You eat me alive

 

It’s not bittersweet

Just bitter

I always had a taste for that

The words fall out

My mouth is dry

You look so refreshing

But I know it’s a lie

 

“It’s not romance

It’s adventure”

So, why am I feeling this way

Say it enough

Let it sink in

Repeat the words

… Emotions still win