Detached

It’s one of those nights
My mind is racing
With nowhere to go
And I’ll never reach you
I’m at the bottom of a well
Looking up
Trapped with my thoughts
And my ever-heavy heart
I’ll run circles all night
And you’ll lie still
Quiet
I’ll swallow my words
For the millionth time
Along with another pill
And you’ll never know
As you climb into your bed tonight
In peaceful ignorance
I am burdened
With so much I need to say
Ready to scream it
Holding it all back
The best that I can
I can’t keep making myself vulnerable
When you’re so distant and detached