Backstage

I stood alone
Lost
Looking for my friend
I left her in the front row
A man approached me
He said he would help me find her
He said he could get me backstage
Meet the bands
Get some autographs
I followed
Oblivious
Dark bleachers
Deafening music
He said he would take me backstage
Sudden realization
With a hand over my mouth and nose
No breath
Struggling
Trying to get away.
Hands pinned over my head
Stripped of my humanity
There I was, backstage
Heart pounding
Inaudible screams
Tears falling
Reduced to a disposable object
He said he could get me backstage
He said he could GET ME
Back stage

Fear

How can I let you go?
You torment me relentlessly
Unfathomable darkness
Sending shivers
Through my already trembling body
As I lie with you
Alone in this dark room

From nothingness
I created you
Yet, you torture me
Force me to watch
As you take new shapes
Never letting me sleep

I lifted you up out of oblivion
And fed you
Knowing you could not survive without me
Why?
I watched you grow
With wide frightened eyes
Held your hand
As you became more powerful than me

All the while
It was I that was shaping you
That conjured you up
From the desolate depths
Of my weary mind
Fabricating your very existence
Then cowering under the blankets